Grief has no structure
It has been a few weeks since I last blogged. The truth is I have been in a dark place, I still am... There have been nights where I have thought about blogging but I have been too tired or too angry. The old phase " you know who your friends are" becomes a reality when your journey is rough... Sadly though the people you think will help sometimes are the very ones that let you down. On the counter side sometimes you get support that you did not expect. But somehow your grieving is added to by those that disappoint. I have started knitting in the last few weeks. Partly because a teacher wrote me off at it at school, and partly because I want to be tired. I am a slow knitter and not a great one either but I am getting there. (Online videos are great way to learn lol) It makes me tired and I am more likely to sleep better. To most people they have moved on. To me, its fresh and I know I have not crashed yet. Every day has dark moments and if I am honest I don...