Living It

 Have you ever heard the expression "When life throws you lemons - make Lemonade." Well that kind of sums up my life right now. Without going into extreme detail in a blog. There are times when you hit a few bumps in the road or a few curve balls that you just never expected. Well that is kind of where I am at in more ways than one right now. The important thing to remember in these situations is that everyone can react differently.  You can attend a concert with a friend and your friend will interpret and experience the events in a different way, This is not to say that either experience is wrong. Each experience is validated when scrutinised by the self, In the last few days I have had a curve ball.  I am in the process of navigating this and at the time of writing I am not sure how things will unfold. There is one thing I am certain of, This is a bump in the road but roads get fixed. I have had many obstacles come across my pathway in my life. I find it extremely inter...

 Joy seems to have drained from me. This blog has always been about honestly living it. It has  been one which seems to have had one challenge after another. Slowly I am coming back. I have quite often looked at this page and I had no idea where to begin. Tonight things began to flow again. This has not happened for a long time. Sometimes you need someone to slightly force your hand to get you to shift and move. Asking for help has never really been my forte. Trusting someone with the deep stuff is hard.  As a sole trader, I tend to try to keep going. Until the wheel's fall off. Deep survival mode. “ Do less” sounds easy. In fact it sounds blissful. The practicalities of that are not so easy.  After a hellish experience, it  was exciting to start a new course. As soon as I  stepped in the room and fear gripped me.  The spasms in my chest that made me hurt for weeks, I thought what on earth am I doing. The start of the course did not go as expected and ...