Okay, so the title of this blog might intrigue you.
Thinking about what I wanted to write here, my mind drifted to a small snippet of the TV show "Outnumbered" where the young girl comments on how silly it is to have a size zero dress size to her gran....the gran explains that it is just a number but that women can be whatever size or shape they want to be regardless of the popular images.....the little girl responds by saying "I want to be Hexagonal".
Its funny, but my question here is Do you/I dare to be different?
Sometimes I long to have a normal job that gives be a regular, stable income and a life where I have far less juggling and "stuff"
I have nearly been in this ministry for 5 years and still lots of people don't get it....sometimes I think people think I am doing this until I can get a proper job when the kids are older. Some just presume I am a housewife.
In fact I don't fit nice and neatly into any "box". Sometimes I like that.....I know I challenge their stereotypes of what a missionary should be....I am married but my husband is not in the mission...I regard myself as part time in hours but full time in what I do.
Let me explain, I work part time in the mission. I have 2 young kids so I don't do a 37 or 40 hour week. I am however always a missionary. If I go to a toddlers on "my day off" I don't not talk about God if the opportunity arose....being a witness is what we are all called to be, is it not?
Why do we get so bogged down on labels and qualifications.
I have worked in care for the last 5 years purely to support my ministry, its a tent making ministry if you like. Now having been in a position for 5 years the powers that be think that in order to be in care you need to registered and have a certain qualification.
The question for me now is do I want to jump through the hoops to get the right piece of paper when that job is not my calling...its a means to an end. Whilst I am always professional, my call is not primarily to work in the care service...
There are some who think I should give up and concentrate on the family....others that think if I give up the job then God will surely put it on people's hearts to financially support my work...
What I am saying is that I will never please everyone or fit the box that they might want to place me in....
I want to be whatever shape and size God wants me to be, whether that is round, square stripey or hexagonal....as long as I am walking in His will for my life....that is all that matters.
