A Rough Diamond with Even Rougher Edges.

 Hello to 2026.

A new year with new opportunities - we can leave the last one behind.

Take a moment though to think what parts of the year that has past do you want to to hold onto in a positive way?

Who are the people you want to nurture?


I have spent hours in those years being with people.

Who are the people that matter?

Who brings warmth to your heart when you think of them?

Where were the smiles?

Where were the tender moments?

If there were raw moments, do they need tended to?


In this coming year I will have been a Christian for 40 years.... Where has the time gone?


If I said that becoming a Christian made my life joy and delight - I would be lying through my teeth.

Last year was a dark one for me. I have been raw and impassioned. I have been someone that most would say " if that is a Christian....!"

I can even hear the words "call yourself a Christian!" a phrase often expelled from my mother's voice  in an argument.

I have spent most if not all of these nearly 40 years with people saying 

You are not good enough

You don't fit

You are not doing this faith thing right. 

When in the mission sector. I got

Memorise Scripture 

Back it up

You are not doing this right.

If I challenged it was ....... oh we don't like that ... Who do you think YOU are?

If my words were blue I got looks of disdain.


The truth is 

I have never been a white picket fence Christian

In fact many with some of the things I have had to carry, hold or endure would have renounced any faith in God and walked away,

God does not promise us a rose garden if we choose to have God as part of our life.


How are you?

Fine...

Come on.... give me the truth....

The thing is God knows the truth anyway, so why are you trying to hide it.

Do any of us know the thoughts of God?

I do believe that God loves unconditionally and that faith is about a personal relationship with God.

There was no Ah buts....

So get comfortable, I love cosy chats. 

I have spent hours over the years being with people. To sit and be with a person in those harder moments of life are golden moments for me.

For someone to trust you enough to expose their inmost parts to you is an honour. 

For me there is a purity in that honesty, even when that part of their life may be ugly and messy and raw.

I would far rather share those experiences that have superficial relationship.

2025 has been a hard one... Physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally.

At times every part of me has been stretched and wrung out.

The beauty within this is some of the people that have been there and I hope will continue to be there.

There have been unspoken words

I don't know how the hell this is going to pan out but God I will trust you in this process.

And I trust the people otherwise I would have walked away last June.

I am hopeful for deepening those friendships. Come sit with me.



I start this year with hope, peace and Love.


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